Love...yea...i know all about it...it's amazing when ur in it, and hurts like a bitch when it breaks down.

Mood: Shitty
Listening to: No It Isn't - Plus 44
Watching: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I was seeing the most amazing girl I have ever known for about 8 months, and then things started changing. I felt like I was being pressured into always bettering myself every time I saw her. Eventually, I became a total jerk, being insecure and unsure of anything that was going on. Not respecting her feelings, her thoughts...just not being there like I used to be. And instead of trying to convince her that I can become that man once again, I try to make her jealous...going out with other girls, none of whom have any importance to me, nor appeal to me like she did. She was my angel, my sweetheart, and the more I talk to her, the more I push her away...the less I talk to her, the more she forgets me, us, what we had...I know I sound like those whiny people who do this everytime they break up with someone, and i'm sorry...i just had to get this off my chest...im an asshole, and...i should've waited...im sorry

Jay